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DATE RAPE

It was a trip to get away from my problems in this town for a week. Little did I know I would be facing a part of my life that would change me forever.
It was a nice night in the city I went out with my friends; we had drinks went dancing, met some new neat people. Then I went up the road only to bump into a few friends from my home town. Totally excited I went with them to party at their place. Little did I know what was in store for me that night.
It all started when my so called Friend asked me to go upstairs with him , which was fine I figured there were people up there also. Was, I wrong! The second we hit the couch he was over me like a pig. I wanted nothing to do with him so I told him I wanted to head downstairs. Downstairs were a few of his freinds, I walked over to the couch and passed out it was about 5 am. I never stay up that late. When I woke up I was in his bed telling him: "no no no" .
Telling him No three times he still presisted to try and go down my pants. I am not the kind of girl to ever just go sleep with a guy like that. No matter how drunk I am. I must have passed out again, because I woke up to him inside of me.
I freaked out and started to cry telling him to get the hell away from me. I ran out of the room in tears lost and didn’t know what to do or think. One of his friends said he would drive me back to where I was staying. He kept telling me he would never do that and so on. When I got back to my friends house I totally lost it and cried for hours. The next day I saw him on my msn was that ever a shock what he was saying to me I couldn’t believe what I was seeing on that screen. Lying his dirty face off, he didn’t care.

This was just the beginning of what I would feel for the next half a year I thought my life was over. Crying endless hours, feeling like I didn’t want to be here anymore, and my thoughts of suicide began to get worse never did I do anything to hurt myself but I thought about it many times, not knowing where to turn. At this point my skills at work were suffering tremendously I didn’t trust a soul. Even talking to people was hard. I didn’t have the guts to tell my parents either I was too afraid it took me 5 months to tell them and was I ever glad I did. If you are afraid don’t be it’s not your fault and they will be there for you. This guy had done this to my friend a few years back so I was so thankful for her being there. My life did fall apart for a long time everything was like a dream. The people that do this to you never even think about your mental state of mind after an episode like this. The feelings you feel the things you think. You just don’t want to live anymore; they have made you feel worthless and shameful.

We eventually went to the police station and asked them questions but it seemed hopeless this worthless pig was going to walk free and he knew it. The only thing I felt right doing was telling the officer my name, my friends, and his name. Just in case one day he does it once again, and that person will hopefully come forward. Well I knew that someday I was going to have to see him and this summer I did. We were up the lake having a great time. My boyfriend came running upstairs to tell me not to go down. Coincidentally the other girl he had done it to was there with me. In my heart I knew I had to see his face, so I headed downstairs. There he was a worthless pig smiling having a great time acting like nothing was wrong. My boyfriend told him to leave so they rounded up and got into their boat. I was told to stay inside but this was the opportunity to get my life back. Going outside I just sat there and stared at his letting him know he wasn’t going to hurt me anymore. I wanted my power back and I was going to get it, that night I decided to move on forgive and forget the best I could. That look on his face was priceless it’s was a look that he knew what he had done. Then he was gone.

After that night my life has returned to well almost normal. People have said things about what happened that night but I don’t care anymore. People are always going to have their own opinion and story. But that’s ok with me because I know and he knows what happened that night and he will have to live with it forever. If he doesn’t pay in this life time he will pay later. Even after this great ordeal I am thankful because I have grown so much into a better person. I do trust people again, even though it took along time it’s just I watch out more and make sure I can trust the person.
To anyone that is feeling terrible thoughts and troubles. Just try your hardest to look at the good out of this tragedy it will make you a better and stronger person than you ever thought you could be. You should see him now when I see him his face is priceless and I’m glad he feels bad. Because he will never feel that pain he made me feel.

Thank you for reading my story I pray it helps you.

God bless.